Yesterday all the symptoms just faded away suddenly. I had some kind of a back ache, just like last time, and went to shower my back with hot water. And then I started bleeding.
I have no nausea now and I can kiss Wonderboy, am not overly offended over all small details and don’t feel so frail all the time. I’m devastated and somehow relieved at the same time. I was starting to become really worried that the pregnancy is outside the womb and could be dangerous. I guess because the doctor said that if the tubes are blocked that kind of a pregnancy is most likely.
I’m relieved I finally got an aswer. A month is so much better than three or more, if this was destined to happen and I was afraid of this from the start. I’m a bit afraid still. What will this be like? What will happen? I’m trying to be courageous, but the pain in my body is terrifying.
I’m trying to think that I can’t get pregnant again, if I don’t get through this. But I wonder, if I ever will get any further.
I play old computer games and hope for it to be over.