Gender stereotypes, Passing Woman, Pregnancy, Volatile bodies

Making Babies Without Penises

I bumped into  a couple I hadn’t seen in a while. They had married this summer. Lulu was already late in her pregnancy. Her tummy was round and she kept rubbing it the way pregnant women do. When I first saw her and wasn’t yet quite sure it was her, I thought God, I hope it’s not her. Moira was like a husband’s supposed to be, busy and stressed about work. Such a great couple they make.

First I got a bit sad. I congratulated them of course, but didn’t ask about the due date, the sex or dwell on the pregnancy at all. I didn’t even realize that I didn’t before I started writing this. But I shielded myself and it was for the best.

Then, after, I started to think about the facts of life. I’m really happy they decided to have a baby, and I’m really happy it’s possible now. The child will be theirs even, if it’s not biologically of them both. But how could they decide which one got to do it? Probably the one who wanted it most. (The choice came as no surprise, though.) They chose some sperm with some conditions and hopes. A stranger will give their child half hir DNA. And the child is no less theirs for them doing so.

This is something I had to take into consideration. I’ve been labouring under the assumed fact that we are not only capable, but also entitled to a child with both of our DNA. But they didn’t. Why do I? Why is it the end of the world, if I have to face the exact same fate they did? They’re already over it!

And I said to Wonderboy, They’re pregnant and they don’t even have one penis in the house!

We laughed about it.

They got to pick the best sperm. Of course they got pregnant quickly, I continued.

They even had two candidates for pregnancy, if the other one would’ve had something wrong with them, I realized.

What is that if not biological efficiency?

What was that if not a sign?



6 thoughts on “Making Babies Without Penises

  1. Yoursong,

    Yes there is. We’re still trying with the hormones for a “spontaneous” pregnancy, but it’s not very likely. But who knows? My period have always been kinda wonky, so this might help. The next thing will be in vitro. There should be a pretty good chance of that working. It’s what I put my hope in.

    But see. I’m very pragmatic. I need to have another alternative in mind. I need to be able to trust that no matter what we will have a baby one day. I think I’m just going through my options. The ones that at first seemed impossible are changing. We can’t be sure of anything and that’s why I have to think about every option there is. I believe it’s part of the “healing” process. Or maybe the surviving process. 🙂 I’m really happy I’m dealing with this like this.

    We’ll probably be in line for in vitro next year. Funny how I’m not as in a hurry anymore. It doesn’t seem so long now that I know that it might give as the chance we need. ❤

  2. Femsub,

    Thank you. I hope it won’t come to that, but I think that if it did, I could go through with it. It would still be hard, though. But what isn’t? ❤

  3. Femsub,

    you guys would be amazing parents no wonder the biological origins of your child

    I’ll have to print this on our fridge door. Some days it would do a world of difference. ❤ !

  4. jnakabb says:

    I’m really happy I’m dealing with this like this

    Glad things are looking … tolerable.

    Haven’t really been able to think of much more to say recently, as my typical guy “fix-it” attitude is of little use. Thinking of you both and hoping you continue to enjoy being together whether or not you end up with a crowded house.

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