Welcome to the emotional trials of Rogue Bambi, a Scandinavian feminist – pragmatic but fragile, assertive yet questioning – who is into sexual submission.
So I’ve come to realize that I have these submissive desires. This was news to me, being a strong feminist woman, radically sex positive and bisexual traveling through the world on my high horse of questioning gender roles and genderblending. After searching my own beliefs and questioning the stereotypes I’ve sucked in through my mother’s milk I’ve come to accept being a submissive woman – on my own terms. You can read about those here.
I am married with the most gentle, wonderful and beautiful man, whom I’ve named Wonderboy for obvious reasons, and who was the startling start to my journey here. He is the first one I ever let hit me, bound me, take me and make me realize I want to be there. In submission to him. He was the first person ever to make me feel that safe.
I am writing to become whole, as sappy as that sounds. I am also writing this to reach out to everyone who are, where I used to be. It’s hard to reconcile wanting something that’s seen as a feminist backlash, even though it’s just one sexuality among many, with being a feminist. I write from my own experiences, but I have the bigger picture in mind. I want to show, how the stereotypes about women, submissive sexuality and even communication were wrong and harmful and how I found that out. Our communication isn’t always perfect, but it’s the only way to grow.
To make matters more complicated we have been trying to conceive for almost three years now. No one said it was going to be easy.
These are my adventures into submission, giving and withdrawing consent and drawing lines I didn’t know existed.
You can contact me at roguebambi @ gmail.com, just without the spaces.
I can also be found on Fetlife.